A Life Surrender

My heart goes out to every broken & hurting adolescent, in the body of teenager. That has been so hurt, and beaten down, that at a young age that there body grew, and they got older, but there mind was stagnate at age 5. That comes from a broken home, and went through hell but couldn’t tell a soul, because “What happened in this house stays in this house”. So from the youngest age you where taught that you trusted noone unless they where in house. What happens when the “in house” turns there back on you, just like everyone else in the world?? . Now your a teenager with rejection issues, and past hurts and strongholds controlling your life, but because you have placed so many veils over your heart, you don’t even know what happened and why you act out, and lash out the way you do. OHHH MY HEART CRIES OUT, to a generation who never had that covering of protection from you families in the areas you needed, went thru life with a absent father, and a mother who was so wrapped up in her own mess to even realize the depth of your brokeness. So you placed your focus on so many other older women who gave you only a inch, but you took a mile, created something deeper in your heart for them because it was the little things they did that a mother should have done. So then, they string you along for a while to see what they can get out of you, pull you in close enough, to simply drop you and leave you high and dry, and you would think we have learned our lesson, but nope we take the L , and move to the next!! Yes MY HEART GOES OUT TO YOU, because see I know what it is to live that life crying out to God asking him to change things, kill you, or remove you, and consistently pray the same thing even if things on the outside look Good! So then you hear about this all knowing, almighty God, who has all the power and control to do what he wants to do in your life, and even more so if you just surrender your life to him. So you try, but there is no one around to help you or guide you, your family is Easter Sunday Christians who live in the world but occasionally, attend church and proclaim how they are going to change, and never do! So then your perspective of Christianity is so corrupt , because i thought I could do anything especially under the laws of Grace and mercy! So this is just a surface of what I have been through, but like I said I made it through it! And it was only because of God.So my heart goes out to my hearting generation, I have a zeal, a fire burning inside of me, that just wants to pour out my love on this broken generation, and let them no GOD IS NO RESPECTER of people so what he did for me he can do for you! I have this passion because I know the feeling all to well. But , allow God inside, if no one else, let him in and he will deliver you from all of your past hurts and pain, and reveal to you your platform in the midst, your mess will become your message, your test will become your testimony ! Trust God Is in control, and is always working behind the scences.

-HisAmazingGracee

Why is it that, wewant what we can’t have?
Mistreat the ones who adore me?
Reject the ones who love us?
Refuse to let go of the ones who never even reached out for us, To grab a hold of The one who actually wants us.
Because dysfunction taught us that those people are no different from the rest.
They are simply dysfunction hidden behind a mask of lust
Somewhere along the lines we got confused and renamed Love, and called it lust 
No matter how pure a person was i refused to let them in. Because where love tried to enter, 
Dysfunction lied dormant 
And created a onion filled with fear, anger, bitterness, and sealed it with a broken heart,
So i would rather be separated and apart
From anyone or anything that could potentially hurt me
Dysfunction came in and tried to turn this House in to a Home. 
Paid the bills with sarcastic comments, and cruel jokes, 
And
Decorated with heart felt text messages, loving emails, and a few hugs and Kisses,
Giving just enough to keep you in, 
But if you get to close be prepared to get pushed  away  
Dysfunction taught me the yo-yo method 
Adt security wasn’t for me, so I created my own,
Built friendships and relationships behind electronic screens, the only place I could let my guard down
It was a safe place to tell you I miss you, I need you, I need a hug, Without having to say it in person,
and the only place that allowed for  my version of Reality
Outloud expressions of my feelings never happened because 
In person my walls were put back up, in fear of rejection 
Although free from Egypt  
Dysfunction was all i knew 
L O V E was foreign to my nature. 
Hid my emotions behind a Beautiful smile, and contagious laughter 
This was my life ……..
Until Dysfunction Had Finally Met Its Match
Got in The Ring With The Trinity, 
Whom Appeared as One 
But In Actuality Was  Three
The Father , The Son, And The Holy Spirit.
Out Weighed And Out Numbered By Far, 
Dysfunction didn’t stand a chance, 
The Love of God came and sweep thru The house of Dysfunction and Like the house Built on sand it completely Fell, so goodbye To Dysfunction and all that has been attached To It,
No 1,2,3, needed The battle had be won
Glory and Honor To The lord God Almighty ,as today starts the rebuilding of my  New Foundation.
Dysfunction doesn’t live here anymore, 
Love Has Moved In.

It’s amazing how God will show up just in the nick of time. When things look really bad in the natural, and you see no hope in the situation. God comes an turns it completely around. Never underestimate the power of God, and His precious timing. God is rarely Early but he is never Late.<3